recently what im doing

things have felt both heavy and light lately, time flies so fast, i've met new friends and gained new experiences.

i feel like i want to abandon the dreams i've been fighting for, but on the other hand, i've come this far, it seems impossible to abandon them, but i tell myself, anything is possible as long as you're still breathing.

for the past few months, about 8-9 months, i've been struggling to make money trading memecoins on the solana blockchain, has it been profitable? yes, some, but mostly losses, i don't think there's a problem with my knowledge and technical side, but the problem i rarely make money from there is my own self-doubt, the desire for more profit, the desire to make money quickly, is more of a mental issue than a skill-based one, but i won't give up fighting myself, i know i'll achieve it someday.

as for work, it's nothing special, it's boring as usual, nothing new, but yesterday i received a freelance project from a friend, a breath of fresh air rather than nothing at all.

"I am the one who knocks." – Walter White